In an effort to lead a healthier
life, I’ve been making changes to my diet. Not cold turkey or anything. But
instead small things, like eliminating soda.
Soda is how I get caffeine. The
teas I like don’t have it, and I don’t like coffee. So it’s soda. I’ve fought
the caffeine headaches pretty well. Combating it by chugging water, which has
been helpful. I’m down to one can a day, and the headaches aren’t that bad.
So I try to go one day without soda
at all. By 4pm, my brain was splitting. If I’d had other symptoms, I’d have
thought I was ill. So I cave. I swing by 7-11 to pick up a
Big Gulp, money in
hand. The headache made it hard to see straight.
I hop in my car and drive away.
It was about 3 miles later I realized
I still had a death grip on my money. I never paid. And I run the scene over
again. I got my drink, walked out the door passing the clerk, into my car and
I unknowingly fled the scene.
Now, something you should know: I
have no stomach for thievery. In the three times I’ve stolen in my life, I have
felt extreme forms of guilt.
When I was 3, I took gummy bears
from those plastic bins at a grocery store. Mom said she’d tell the manager and
they would have the cops take me away. I cried a lot.
When I was a bit older, I was in
Sunday school and found an F1 racer matchbox car. I love it. Took it. And yes…
that’s stealing from a church.
And finally, in kindergarten my
Bucky O’Hare action figure was stolen just days after the arduous journey made
by my parents to buy it for me. I was 5. I was pretty certain of who took it,
so I took his Donatello Ninja Turtle Action Figure. I still feel terrible.
So yeah. 20 years later I steal a
Cherry Pepsi. And when I found that money still gripped in my hand, sweat
formed on my brow. I turned the car around and made the trip back. Walked in,
cup in hand, and casually said: “umm… I think I just stole this.”
“Yeah, we were just talking about
that. We wrote down your information.” He shows me a list: License Plate,
Model of car, color, physical description, height, beenie, glasses, etc. Pretty
good, considering I was there just a moment.
“Well, I apologize. My head is just
killing me.”
“No problem. I’m surprised you came
back. If it had been beer, we would have called the cops.” I laughed at this. “there’s
nothing we could really do over a Big Gulp, except see if you came back. Next time,
the drinks on us to say thanks for your honesty.”
Wait, what? I stole, came back and
paid for it… so you’re giving me my next one free? I’m confused… and I won’t
hold them to it as he wasn’t a manager. And yeah.
But my conscience is clear. The guilt
is gone. And I walked around with my chalice saying “Here be my spoils!”